Remember Amil? The first lady of Roc-A-Fella? I’ve often wondered what happened to her. She was set up so nicely and then she just fell off the map.
Well Billboard caught up with in the midst of their “Ladies First: 31 Female Rappers Who Changed Hip-Hop” series. She’s got new music and she’s opening up about her departure.
On leaving the Roc: “I wasn’t there mentally. I was in my own world. Was I prepared? No. Did I realize what was happening right before my eyes? No.” …
“I think they (Roc-A-Fella) knew through my actions that I wasn’t in it. I wasn’t the artist that was doing everything be No. 1. I wasn’t doing anything to make myself bigger than what I was. I wasn’t putting any effort in promotion. I wasn’t looking at it as a career. It’s not that I wasn’t doing it because I was stupid, it was because I didn’t want to be there anymore.”
“There was never a conversation. He (Jay Z) knew that that’s not where I wanted to be. I told him that I couldn’t do it for another year. I think he understood, overall. He thought that as time went on I’d be ready, but later realized I wasn’t. I know he knew, ‘She don’t give a fuck about this shit.'”
“I was fine being an around the way rapper. If I could go back in time and do it all over again, I wouldn’t have allowed myself to jump in the game. If I would have did it again, I would have left it alone. I wasn’t cut out for it. I probably would have stepped in as a writer.”
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